Laiyne August 30th, 2007
All for a dress. Yes, I’ll admit that when Bjorke realized that we had gone all the way into the depths of Dire Maul for a pattern… she looked less than pleased. Probably even less than when I had cast a prayer of healing on the party to which she told me to “Knock it off” It seemed those in our party couldn’t stop with just the pattern. The further we ventured in the more the thirst to fight what was inside became stronger. The first task was to destroy these strange elmental creatures around certain pylons. Then we were able to fight the first boss easily enough… which allowed us to finally challenge the prince. We had heard before we went in that no one had ever challenged him before. The fight was so quick that I can hardly recall. I just remember Kelandros backing him into a corner with a growl. I suppose everything else was instinct.
Later that evening I was able to make the beautiful dress. I would say that the outcome was well worth the effort to obtain the pattern. The dress is beautiful. Now I need to gather enough materials to make one other.
Late in the evening I found myself thinking of the future. What my role would be as a priest in Sterling? How loyal are my guild mates to me? Would they be understanding if they knew? My instinct tells me to remain quiet and keep it a secret. I am ashamed when I think of how others in the guild trust so freely and so many while I remain reserved.
Laiyne August 29th, 2007
The realization of what has happened has put my mind into a much more worried state. I’m not sure what I am supposed to do, or who I can trust… if anyone. Last night with all these thoughts wearing heavily on my mind I finally, exhausted, I fell asleep. My dreams were not comforting to me. I found myself in an unfamiliar but beautiful home. I felt uneasy and found myself running around looking anywhere for someone or something familiar. Instead I found no one. I heard noises coming from one of the rooms so I walked in. Inside were two beautiful children playing on the floor… and as they looked up at me I knew who they were, but they did not know me. My heart sunk. As I stepped away from the room I saw her, looking at me with hatred in her eyes. Her voice was cold and he told me to leave, and never return. In my dream I couldn’t find my voice. I couldn’t ask what to do, or what I had done… instead I felt empty. When I woke my stomach ws in a knot.
I pray to Elune to help me. I know the path I must take, I know what I must do. I only need the strength to do what is needed. I feel so isolated. I must turn my focus again to my training. As I focus on that I will be at least comforted with the knowledge that I can fight. That’s what I always was… a warrior for Elune.
Laiyne August 28th, 2007
It has been a long while since I’ve picked up a pen to write. So many things have happened since an entry has been put into this ledger. I suppose now is a good time to write.
Navane’s absence has taken it’s toll. I don’t think it is so wrong to have lost all hope of his return. To become stronger and not wallow in loneliness has been my goal. I focused on my training and finally arrived in Outland. I have been lucky enough to receive help from several of my guild mates. I am hoping that eventually I will be able to fight by their side, and not behind them. Perhaps this path will lead me to where Elune wants me to be.
Kelandros has been very kind as well, helping me with my first tasks in Zangarmarsh. Teul has been helpful as well and along with Kelandros helped me fund enough money to train on my new mount, Storm. He is a beautiful white saber and seems to go well enough with my features. It’s noteworthy that while we change into shadowform we look the same… what had seemed so pure turns into darkness.
Darkness. Well, now… I met a man in Hellfire recently who told me that I should abandon the dark path I was on and leave it for the path of light. As I stood there he gently but firmly gripped my neck in his hands… and explained to me that as quickly as that, the darkness would take hold of me, changing my person forever. As I calmly stood there I thought of all the choices I had made to get me to this point I realized that this path will not be my undoing. Elune herself has granted me the power and will to use the shadows to further her will. What this man, and many do not know, is that my will has the wisdom of thousands of years. My will can not be broken so easily easily by the path of shadows. I have seen battles and sacrificed much more than just my body… and lived to tell the tale.