Laiyne August 29th, 2007

The realization of what has happened has put my mind into a much more worried state.  I’m not sure what I am supposed to do, or who I can trust… if anyone.  Last night with all these thoughts wearing heavily on my mind I finally, exhausted, I fell asleep.  My dreams were not comforting to me.  I found myself in an unfamiliar but beautiful home.  I felt uneasy and found myself running around looking anywhere for someone or something familiar.  Instead I found no one.  I heard noises coming from one of the rooms so I walked in.  Inside were two beautiful children playing on the floor… and as they looked up at me I knew who they were, but they did not know me.  My heart sunk.  As I stepped away from the room I saw her, looking at me with hatred in her eyes.  Her voice was cold and he told me to leave, and never return.  In my dream I couldn’t find my voice.  I couldn’t ask what to do, or what I had done… instead I felt empty.  When I woke my stomach ws in a knot. 

I pray to Elune to help me.  I know the path I must take, I know what I must do.  I only need the strength to do what is needed.  I feel so isolated.  I must turn my focus again to my training.  As I focus on that I will be at least comforted with the knowledge that I can fight.  That’s what I always was… a warrior for Elune. 

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