Unsure
Laiyne September 12th, 2007
Motivation has left me. With so much going on around me it seems that all I can do is just sit and observe. I don’t have the desire or drive to run around Zangarmarsh. I know I need to do it. I need to get stronger and fight while I can. I need to find a way to do it. I don’t think I had ever minded being alone before. For some reason now, more so than ever, I dread venturing out alone. What am I afraid of? Am I afraid of death? Am I afraid of failing? I can hardly say. I just need to find my strength again.
At night I try to rest but my dreams trouble me. They are always laced with a feeling of urgency and dread. It’s always the same though… that I can’t protect myself and those dearest to me. I try and I fail. In the end of these dreams I’m not alone… I’m simply gone… as if I never exisited in the first place.